Tearful days

For the last few days.... well since Friday really, I have been rather on edge, ratty and rather frayed around the edges. In fact... a lot.

Iv'e not been able to sleep properly. Everything, everyone and anything has been making me angry and irritable. I have been bursting into tears for no reason  and Iv'e been really snapping back at hubby.
I'm not sure if its due to the sudden change in the weather, the pressure that has built due to caring for hubby, having to scrimp every penny together just to pay the bills and feed my family. The doctors incompetence of diagnosing and referring hubby onto the right boards for a proper diagnosis. Or if its a whole combination of these. I did take a pregnancy test, but that was negative. So if it is my hormones, then I don't quite understand why. But I so pose that the joys of being a woman!

Anyway it came to a bit of a head this evening. While I was preparing dinner, the cats came into me and staring making a noise for there tea. Hubby had been pottering in and out of the kitchen, chatting. But I had found it hard to engage in proper conversation. The one of the cats then let out this 'feed meeee' meow and I just flipped and screamed " SHUT UP". Hubby then rather forcefully spanked me, to which I chucked the fork I was holding and ran into our bedroom in a flood of tears, shutting the door behind me and falling onto the bed. It took a few minutes, but hubby came and joined me on the bed, scooped me up and hugged me for so long and tight. I cried for what seemed like an age, but was only a short time. I did feel better for it, but I'm still feeling like I just want to attack the world any anyone who threatens our family.


Maybe I need a good de-stress spanking, to let it all out, but I'm unsure how much my emotions can fully take. If hubby decides that it will happen, but I don't think Iv'e got the strength to ask....

Mobile phones, Straps and my Bottom!

Hubby has set only a few rules for me, but one is that I carry my phone with me at all times.(forgive me if ive already told you this). This is because due to his condition he needs pretty much needs 24/7 care, So on a Friday, his mum comes round when I'm at work. but there are times that I have to pop out or go shopping, and hubby doesn't want to come... so hence the phone.

Well anyway this week, we moved the kittens out of our bedroom, (3 of our cats had kittens... long story and not the time or place to talk about it) this was because there little bladders were finding a place to relive himself, and one of them peed on my phone charger. So I was rather reluctant to use it till we new it was safe, and I didn't charge the thing until Friday. Hence it did not come to work with me. and I had to go shopping yesterday, and even though it was charged... I forgot it!


This morning after I had my bath the consequence's of my actions caught up with me. Every time I go out without it, I receive 5 of the strap. I walked into the bedroom, and hubby followed me in. He picked up the strap and said did I want to get it over with while my bottom was still warm from the hot bath. I said so ony 5, for sat.. but he reminded my about Friday to. 


I was told to lift the towel, bend over the bed and count. 10 of the best followed by a "Thank you sir".

Well lets see how long it takes me to forget the thing this time xx

A spankingley good morning.

Woke up this morning to Hubby's cuddles. As Iv'e said for the last few weeks, with all the storms England's been having, Hubby has been out of his normal sorts. But this morning was out of this world. I got woken up by one of his deliciousness spooning cuddles and kisses. and as I arched into him more, he very slightly turned me to the side and spanked me oh so wonderfully. I couldn't get enough of it this morning and was very disappointed when he stopped. but it did lead to a lovely morning love making session and some inspiration to the next bit of fiction...It was later on the bus on the way home from town for food that I was thinking that I usually find the shopping rather a laborious task, I like to  get my veg from the green grocers etc, and support local business as much as I can with a small budget we have, but today... I practically skipped round town and didn't care who saw me lol

Thank you my Hubby for a wonderful Morning and a wonderful day.
He has promised a bit of a spanking tonight........ we've just got to see how he goes xxxxxxx

Naughty food

I was baking the bread this week, when out pops one that looks like this....

So it got me to thinking what else out there in the food world looked like our bottoms.

Not sure about the last one.... looks like something else though....

Hope every ones had a good weekend xx

Questions

Would you rather be spanked outside in a cold woodshed or inside by a cozy fire?

Hubby has a bit of a work shed as we come out of the house, but I couldn't see myself being spanked in there. So fire to...

Would you rather be spanked in public or private?

Define public..... Is that out in the open or in front of others? Iv'e had the first, but not the second. But I prefer in private

Would you rather fantasize about spankings or actually be spanked?

I do fantasize but prefer a good real one!

Would you rather be spanked for humiliation or for your spanker's pleasure?

I never get spanked for humiliation. And would never want to. But id rather get spanked for hubby's pleasure. and often do lol

Would you rather be spanked by hand or hairbrush?

Always hand. Hate that blooming brush!

Would you rather be spanked until you cried or until you are aroused

I like both.

Would you rather have just a red bottom or welts/bruises?

Mmmmmm hard one. I like a red bottom, but seeing the stripes of a cane or strap brings a big smile to my face. I know hubby likes both, but I think we both prefer to see the marks.

Would you rather be spanked for the naughty things you have done or just because you enjoy the experience?

Id prefer to get spanked for the joy of it, but I find I get a lot more out of a DD spanking, and that often leads to enjoyable things to.

Would you rather be spanked with panties up or panties down?

Panties up for a bit of a warm up, it gets you in the right place I find. but once the main spanking starts..... totally pants off! Sometimes find knicker elastic will get in the way if there not totally down

Would you rather be spanked OTK or bent over a table/chair?

Because of some logistics, OTK is not really good for me. I often find I get really dizzy and sick and cant cope with it which spoiled the experience. But we do a version where hubby sits on the edge of the bed and I'm OTK'd with pillows over my feet, (bad circulation) and a pillow for my head. Over the chair or sofa is also fun but prefer on the bed

Would you rather your spanker have physical contact with you?

Always, weather its me on him, or an hand on me, it sometimes feels detached when there no touch.

Would you rather be a brat to your spanker to deserve a spanking or simply ask your spanker for a spanking because you know you needed it?

It depends what mood I'm in and what mood hubby's in. I do like playing the brat to get a spanking, but I also will just ask. Usually those ones are for when my head needs clearing or I'm very stressed and it needs to come out. but I will also ask to go over his Knee on the sofa if we are watching a film, I find it very relaxing just to be spanked like that.

Have you received a spanking in the last week?

Ohhh hell yes, sit spot still very sore

Would you rather be spanked for the physical pleasure or the emotional release?

Both.

Would you rather be spanked by a despotic, mean person or by a compassionate, benevolent person?

Hubby is the only one who I will allow anywhere near my bottom!

Would you rather be talked to while you are spanked or no talking at all?

If its DD then I get both, and I need both. but for pleasure, I like to be talked to, and talk back as well.

Would you rather get one swat at a time with pauses to let the sting set in or a continuous tanning to build up the fire?

Errrrmmmm....... both. I love the continuous tanning so I can run through the pain barrier, but then I enjoy the swats one at a time, it seems to last longer that way.

Would you rather be forced into a spanking or willingly submit into a spanking?

I often don't get the choice. Hubby just drags me off lol

Would you rather have a safe word or be pushed beyond your preconceived limits?

I have a safe word, but try not to use it.

Would you rather spanking be part of love making or not a part of love making?

We use it for both

Would you rather that spanking be a surprise or something that you have to look forward to?

Anticipation always gets me going, but a surprise one is also very fun...

Would you rather that spanking be a part of role playing kinkiness or a response to events that have happened in reality?

I cant decide... sorry

Would you rather be cuddled or scolded after a spanking?

Always a cuddle, and to be told that "I'm a good girl now" never scolded!

Feel free to copy and paste!~ Would love to read what you guys have to say!

swinging around?

Any one got any wonderful ideas of how to spank on a bed like this???

The funnier the better...... love to hear your answers xx

I sit before you with what is rather a red behind! and its been 7 hours since the actual event!
I shall start at the beginning. Well last night I said to hubby that he might want to read my last post. I now think that I should have ermmmmmmm........... not!
When hubby got into bed last night he told me that I was a naughty girl. Gave me a long cuddle and then we drifted off to sleep.
This morning, hubby asked how I was feeling. (as I did him) to which I said I was feeling not to bad.  I thought was going to be any other normal morning but alas hubby had other ideas. Wondering into the bathroom after him, he once again asked how I was feeling, to which I said, I was OK. so this got the response of....

"Right, you will go and find the hairbrush and wait back for me in the bedroom!"

My face dropped

"Off you go!"

So I slowly wondered back into the bed room. My mind was in total denial, but I went strait to the draw with  offending brush on and put it on the pillow as is our custom. I sat on the bed thinking ohh crap. He walked back in and stuck some pants on and then told me to stand!
The lecture began about how although I'm his carer,' HE IS STILL HEAD OF THE HOUSE!' yes sir.
Then over the lap I went.

First it was the hand! and what a hand it proved to be. Hard and fast. It didn't feel like I was getting a warm up, but I know he was to some degree! This seem to last what felt like a life time but it was probably only 5 minutes worth at first. He had given me a pillow to cry into but it wasn't that wet..... yet......! he stopped and came down to me level to kiss me, and tell me that he loved me, and that he appreciates al that i have to do for him.
"I know you find it hard my darling, and sometimes the stress is very hard. but you must remember that im the one in charge, not you."
"yes sir"
"And im only doing this because I love you, you do understand that dont you?"
"yes sir"
Then the onslaught of the hand continued. and it got harder as he went on. swapping hands every few minutes! My tears were flowing very well by this point i hasten to add. he stooped again, held my hand and told me that he loved me. and gently rubbed my very hot bottom with the other, my mind started to relax thinking it was over.... but nooooo I was very very wrong!

"Now that was your warm up, lets begin with the spanking!"
At this point i buried my head into the pillow (I will add now that i have a pillow as we live in a ground floor flat with very thin walls, so our bedroom is one of the safer places but the pillow is also required as our bedroom faces the road. so its there for a muffle as well a small amount of comfort.) and the feel of the back of the hairbrush skimmed over the hot cheeks. Yes I tensed and waited. Didn't have long to, I can still feel the strikes on my sit spot!!!!!!! The hairbrush must have gone on for another 5 minutes or so. I was screaming and crying into the pillow with such gusto,

 that I thought the gas repair man outside was going to knock. He stopped again and asked if the de stressing was working....... I sobbed "yes sir" once again. 
We had a bit of a chat about love and discipline and then he dropped the bombshell.
" Right, I was going to cane you..... ( big tears started to fall again) but I've decided to use the strap instead!"
Settled back over his lap he announced that he wanted me to count.... which means a yes sir afterwards.
the first 20 were split between each cheek. and the next 10 were over both cheeks. I thought he was going to stop then. 30 is usually our limit. but Hubby carried on...... 38...thank you sir.....39.....thank you sir.....40....thank you sir..... 41!!!! thank you sir..... right up to 50. The last 5 felt like my cheeks were on fire! My sit spot was burning.
And then just for good measure Hubby used his hand once more to drive the point home again. To say I was spent would be an understatement!
Cuddles, loving, and lots of I love you's later, I gingerly got up and had a look. He had done an impressive job!!!!!!!

So as I said, I sit hear now with still a really sore bottom! but it seems to have done the trick. I'm a lot calmer, and more at peace with myself and life. (plus the fact that we got some rather good news as well this morning, (after the spanking) in the post helped. We don't owe the tax man over £300, which he thought I did)
Thanks for taking to time to read, see you all soon!